Man in the Mirror

Some people need to lighten up.

I understand the anger and being offended and can see why it is considered to be rude and a little bit on the stupid side. I disagree with it being “loathe” but I would admit it’s kind of cheeky of me (or as you put it, impertinent), but like I said, some people need to lighten up. To be fair, it’s not really me trying to get attention mainly because I didn’t publish it. Anonymous or not, I do know who you are.

I’m not angry; just feel like clearing things up… and oh, I hope you’ll get past this debacle soon enough :).

Oh that reminds me everyone, a quick reminder in case you’ve forgotten: “I don’t pander to the people.”

Here’s a quick riddle:

Yesterday I went shopping, I decided that I would spend at most RM60, I then buy goods worth RM40 and when I reach home, I still have RM50 in my wallet.

Why?

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So MJ has passed away. My honest thoughts on this is the fact that it’s always a sad thing when a person passes away, and even though the pedophile scandal wasn’t the best thing in the world that could happen to him, he’s a great musician and I enjoy his music.

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They say that in order to replicate or improve a winning formula, one must try and think back what makes it a winning formula in the first place, try to mirror the past if you will. Isolate the thing that made it successful and try to improve on that.

So I’ve been thinking on what I did right last semester, and here are my thoughts on that:

• Thanks to the motivation from Liyana and Fakhry, I was determined not to lose to them and ended up not missing a single class last year.
• Could that be it? It could help, but I don’t think it is the major factor.

• I’m almost always alone at home – especially when Bowling and Rizal are out doing their own thing with their classmates.
• Could that be it? I don’t really think so because looking back, while being alone at home gives me more time to study peacefully, I don’t think that I spent much of the alone time studying (read: sleep early).

• There’s also the thing that Udin always did (and probably still do) Thursday nights in Lendu, which I almost never did back then – and only started doing that the previous semester.
• Could that be it? I would love to think so.

That’s all well and good, but I’ve come up with one major reason why I did so well last semester: Amal.

There I’ve said it. My ex-girlfriend was an integral part of my success last semester.

During semesters, I have this bad habit of overloading my brain with women that probably would not want to have anything to do with me. Mundane stuff like: “does she really like me?” “why is she stringing me along for no reason?” “could she just stop giving mixed signals?” are basically stupid things to have in my head.

However, when I was with Amal, none of that sort of thing happened, mainly because I was only thinking of her – only natural because she was my girlfriend at the time. The only person that could mess me up was Amal, and she didn’t do that.

She was the epitome of a perfect girlfriend and never really gave me any grief. We barely fought and even when we did, it wasn’t anything major that could screw things up (well, apart from the issue that led to the breakup).

So what I’m trying to say is this, being in a relationship with her prevents me from having other stupid issues with other girls because I was with her and no one else, and only she could screw me up and she didn’t. So yeah, her being great to me helped me concentrate on the things that really matters the most – and led to my best performance in a semester since EVER.

Hold your horses, while Amal have been arguably the best girlfriend ever to me, I don’t think that we would end up back together and we’re better off as friends. Amal and I have shown that there is such a thing as a civilized break up and there is a possibility of being friends after a breakup.

So yeah, I just want to thank you Amal for being great to me. It’s going to be hard for me to further improve myself next semester. :)